Growing A Back Bone

For as long as I can remember I have lacked a back bone and it’s been a long, painful process to grow one but I’m finally managing. It started off slow, during my second stay at treatment for my eating disorder. I let other women there walk all over me and didn’t stand up for what I believe in, something I’ve always struggled with.ย 

It wasn’t until a new woman joined the group I was in at treatment that my confidence and back bone began to sprout. The woman was not a bad person. She was not mean, rude, or manipulative but her and I simply did not click. Our personalities clashed and we had very different views on the rules of the center and whether or not they should be followed.

Through the weeks that followed I learned how to have a decent, grown up conversation without sparking an argument or being overly upset when someone gets mad and insults me. While this woman never mocked me during our discussions she also was set in her ways and convinced that the rules were silly and pointless.

As a naive twenty year old, I grew up quite a bit in those few weeks. I realized that not everyone is always going to agree with me and accepting that has helped voice my opinions without fear. Even if it means annoying my Facebook friends with all my opinions and political stances that don’t always agree with theirs.ย 

Yes, I’m finally growing up and learning to be my own person. It’s taken maybe a bit longer than most but I’m making progress. So this blog is to reflect my person and show how I have and continue to grow. Tumblr is fun and rebloging pictures is therapeutic I want this to be a place where I can write about life and to post my short stories.ย 

Peace&Love,

Rai

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About railynnt

This is my blog, a place where I can share my writing and journey through recovery, mental illness, and life.
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4 Responses to Growing A Back Bone

  1. Jacquie says:

    We all have different views, opinions, and a different journey to travel in our lives. It is never an ending learning experience ๐Ÿ™‚ We all slip up, make mistakes etc. It is just the way we handle ourselves afterwards that makes the difference ๐Ÿ™‚ I am proud of how far you’ve come. I know how hard it is..Keep on keepin on sister! You’ve got this!!!
    XOXOXOXO Jacquie ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. marilynmunrow says:

    you own this,you are incredible and you are a strong human being.

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  3. marilynmunrow says:

    Reblogged this on Marilyn Munrow and commented:
    Keep on keeping on sugar. You have grown more than a backbone. You have learned who you are.

    Like

  4. gh0stpupp3t says:

    Good on you. ๐Ÿ™‚

    Like

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