Author Archives: railynnt

About railynnt

This is my blog, a place where I can share my writing and journey through recovery, mental illness, and life.

A Granddaughter’s Guilt

I have so many regrets and they all come crashing down in February when I’m reminded of how many things I took for granted before Grandma Sharon died. My last Christmas with her I don’t think I even realized it … Continue reading

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Grandma’s Month

It has begun The month of history and memories To celebrate a woman that will never meet my children What a loss for them   My tears of sorrow and grief highlight my cheekbones Covered by flushed cheeks And I … Continue reading

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I Feel Like My Body’s Betray Me

Its hard to function, go to school, and have a life when you can barely get out of bed in the morning and the only thing making it possible is the fact that classes will be failed if not attended.  … Continue reading

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Love?

Lights flashing, World spinning, Quickly! Move your lips as fast as you can, Until the only noise is your heart jumping out of your mouth! And then, silence.   I sigh in relief, Until a tidal wave of anxiety, Bigger … Continue reading

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I’m Getting Antsy

Well it’s been 24 days since I entered treatment and I’ve been given my first pass home for the night last Sunday. I was excited to be home, thrilled actually but I was also nervous. This, my home is where … Continue reading

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To the Woman on the Porch

To the Woman on the Porch, I’m not sure where to start or even who to address this letter to. I mean, how do you start a letter to a woman you don’t know but briefly met over ten years … Continue reading

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To My Best Friend

  Sup Punk? I’m sure I don’t even to address this letter because anyone significant in my life knows who I’m talking about because it seems that I can’t help but mention you at least once in every conversation I … Continue reading

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