Author Archives: railynnt

About railynnt

This is my blog, a place where I can share my writing and journey through recovery, mental illness, and life.

Women are Trees

Women are beauty With God made thighs carved out of boulders Rivaling the strength of mountains They carry us with a grace no man can compete   So why daughter do you hide them? Decorating them ways that were never … Continue reading

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A Granddaughter’s Guilt

I have so many regrets and they all come crashing down in February when I’m reminded of how many things I took for granted before Grandma Sharon died. My last Christmas with her I don’t think I even realized it … Continue reading

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Grandma’s Month

It has begun The month of history and memories To celebrate a woman that will never meet my children What a loss for them   My tears of sorrow and grief highlight my cheekbones Covered by flushed cheeks And I … Continue reading

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I Feel Like My Body’s Betray Me

Its hard to function, go to school, and have a life when you can barely get out of bed in the morning and the only thing making it possible is the fact that classes will be failed if not attended.  … Continue reading

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Love?

Lights flashing, World spinning, Quickly! Move your lips as fast as you can, Until the only noise is your heart jumping out of your mouth! And then, silence.   I sigh in relief, Until a tidal wave of anxiety, Bigger … Continue reading

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I’m Getting Antsy

Well it’s been 24 days since I entered treatment and I’ve been given my first pass home for the night last Sunday. I was excited to be home, thrilled actually but I was also nervous. This, my home is where … Continue reading

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To the Woman on the Porch

To the Woman on the Porch, I’m not sure where to start or even who to address this letter to. I mean, how do you start a letter to a woman you don’t know but briefly met over ten years … Continue reading

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